Post 4. Meeting new people in the AF

Before November… sorry my manners. Good afternoon followers and wordpress! Hope all is well with each and EVERY one of you! Now before November, I can honestly say I haven’t traveled much. I’ve only been to a handful of states, most of which I have driven through and mainly Florida. So me being in the AF exposed me to the wonderful US of A’s diversity. Sure, I am from New York City, one of the most diverse cities on the planet. Just a hub of cultures, 120 plus to be unaccurate, (probably more). I never really get to talk to them how I’ve talked to my fellow wingmen here in the AF. I have found and gotten to have nice adequate relationships with people from Oklahoma, Alaska, Tennesee, Oregon, Texas, and North Dakota just to name a few. The interesting stories and the way they explain the social atmospheres of their state just interests me so much, I seldom care to tell them my story. Yes I know! I said I am introvert way back when, so, I wouldn’t tell them anything about me but, I had to because they asked. I am respectful. I have an “AF brat” teaching me Japanese as well. I learn new thigs about each of these states nearly everyday. It just shows how little I know about my own country though I live in one of the most diverse places on the planet. I have definitely changed my character on interactions with people since I have been here. I am not outgoing as yet. But I am learning to be, with the right people. My experiences in Texas and now Mississippi has taught me a bunch about people and yes Southern Hospitality. I capitalized that because it should be a thing to be capitalized. Not that New Yorkers don’t have hospitality! We just have to do an extensive background search on ya😉 At any rate, right now, I am working on my novel so I will be back at work right after I hit send. With that said, I hope everyone is having a great weekend. Until next weekend! Remember to hit that comment box if you have anything to say to me or about this post! Ja mata!

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Post 3. Something New

As I think back to myself… Sorry. Good morning followers and WordPress community! As I was. As I think back to to myself as a younger person or child… yeah child… I remember hating to read, although I am an awesome reader. I really wonder how I got to a point where I want to actually write novels and being known for it. My vision is for some of my novels to make it to the big screen. Yay. Its going to be very hard and I am not getting any younger. My vision after that is to create comics. Even this, I am scratching my head on because as a child, I hated reading! Although I was very awesome at it. I remember seventh grade I was creating comics in class… it was very basic but! Some of my classmates found it interesting (I used to draw a bit), the story board at least. So now we are here, in 2016, 2 years-ish into me blogging, 3 years into me declaring myself as an author though, I am unpublished. I am thinking to myself yet again (I think and talk to myself alot) why am I no closer to my goal? Or maybe in retrospect, I really am closer. I have many projects started and one nearly completed save for editing and editing and editing. The when is what is eating me up but, I am still determined. So today, as part of a strategy to gain more followers of my authorship, I am planning to release 3 short stories and 1 novel this year. That way I can at least get everyone used to my style and just me. I do love to inspire thought into my novels/novellas and get people talking. I think that is the most fulfilling thing I can get out of my fan base besides support. I just need to do right by you and put out a product. I am in a weird space on what to do to finally execute. I am scared. Mentally. Too many “what ifs” in my head. The AF has taught me to deal with that. Well, I was going to talk about something else but, I will save it for next post. Sayonara followers and WordPress community!!!

Post 2. A poem of Solace

There is a time in ones life where you have to wonder

What am I suppose to do, this why must I ponder

Is it not just enough to live, and do what is most pleasing

That splendor of life is very much teasing.

The barriers of life, society, a singular force

Yet, a plural being transcending multiple planes,

Aims to block me from my heart and minds desires, of course.

Yes! Life is one giant game. Learn to play, land on broadway.

Ignore the rules land on broadway.

Understand the rules. Own broadway.

This is what we have been taught. But you not many understand.

Some choose to still stay in the stands.

Some choose to go with the flow, those coarse sands too are fluid.

Some rather go against the grain until, their life becomes lucid.

Against all odds, all 3 paths choose to struggle. 

Forever progression to a path of comfort, though some may never find

Or even taste that thing in the world that to them binds.

Post 1. A new chapter.

Well hello followers and WordPress community, welcome to 2017 and my page! As you all know by now I am a novelist and while I am not published as yet, I am currently working to find time between the Air Force and my very pregnant wife (yay me!) to write. I have found time but, as life would have it, no laptop. So I am currently waiting for my laptop to get here…. next week. Fret not! I have consolidated some of my novels and moved things around. I even managed to create another short story. This year is going to be about short stories and one full novel. I DO APOLOGIZE FOR LAST YEARS HICCUPS AND INDECISIVENESS! I am getting a more clearer release schedule that will benefit my readers and getting to know my style. So, I have been in the lab concocting a love potion for all of you skeptics and anticipators alike. A potion stronger than Love Potion Number 9. Hehe! Yes, I am in the Air Force as well. Currently in Technical training for 7 months so I will miss my sons birth. (Sad face) I will make it up to my new family, I owe to it them. It’s been challenging but, we are alright. My wife is very supportive of me and my dreams and I of hers 300 percent! What else is there to say, I don’t know. I would like to hear from you all, I will gladly take advice or any questions! Have a nice one everyone, and stay blogging!

Happy New Years.

This is one of those moments where when you come back after a 2 month hiatus, you have to decide whether to reset your post counter to one or continue to 47… So in the spirit of the New Year for 2017, we will just make this a New Years post and the next will be post 1. Hello my followers, passerbyers and wordpress! I hope all is well while I was gone and I hope to gain more followers in this year! My book is fast approaching, as I have a way clearer path in front of me regarding that, I am doing well personally for now, just plain ole working hard. Sacrifices and blessings is what I will call it and if you choose to call it anything else feel free as long as it is congruent with what I mean haha. I hope you all are doing well and blogging! I am currently in uniform and on break from duty, so I am limited… but. We. Will. Be. More active from now on! Once I get settled in! I will be in Mississippi for awhile so hopefully I can get some pictures and what not. Oh and a lot of work done on my second novel whilst editing my first. It shouldn’t conflict with study time. Thanks to those who follow me and still read my posts and thanks to those who read all the same. Boo to no one. It’s been a rollercoaster of a 2 months but, I will divulge more info sometime this week. Hopefully I do not change the nature of my blog too much! Happy New Years All! Woo 2017!

46. 

I close the doors and windows of my soul

Just to find a sight with in that can reflect me as a whole

Now console, while I consider

To stress and a headache, them my mind I deliver

Life pacing is as fast as a river

It rages but the sound is deceptive, I can barely hear quivers

It’s like quick silver, or maybe molten lava

End my suffering in seconds, by heat or unexplained phenomena

My suffering be quick enough for me to feel no pain

Death whether felt or not still probably feels the same

Just a reflection of a life that drove me insane

Because the directions weren’t clear enough

Bad enough weather on my windows pane

That’s what it is, smart to realize

My real eyes can see bullshit apart from lovely pies

I look up pass the atmosphere to the dark lit skies

Or maybe abyss, from here I can’t tell which is which

If one had a broom, my view would quickly switch

That’s how senseless my path is, but I see gold

Like the leprechaun at the end of the rainbow

I think that at the end it’s better as far as the notion of rain goes

A peace sign, to end all suffering

I drive to greatness, I hope it doesn’t leave when it hears my engine muttering….

Awkward. 45th Post.

I am what I am.

I don’t like to talk… unless

We have something to talk about.

Maybe by my standards, maybe just maybe

It leaves a ending that requires more than a maybe

You know. Grounds for more conversation. Maybe.

I don’t want no one around me… unless

We do something… even then that’s not what I want

Even then that’s something I look for

Even then I will leave if there is nothing to do.

I talk to myself internally. Very frequently. 

I am smarter than I am. I often challenge my status quo

Of who I think I am. Laughed at by the peers of myself.

The real me just as smart but, the reality no smarter than.

I love a lot but, don’t show much. I love a little less.

Reserved or selfish, the lines are blurred. I am very selfless.

Self is gone when I love. Self is in a safe position when act.

Unconditional maybe, is what I lack. Surround myself with me…

So I can engulf you with me. Just sit there and stay there.

Understand, but don’t mention it. Know, but don’t ask.